Tuesday, February 1, 2011

I have decided that I am going to start writing on here, for myself. I want to do this because it seems I can't remember anything. I want to be able to look about and remember all the fun, and not so fun, everyday stuff. I really sometimes think that people who make "New Year's Resolutions" are well, silly. I think well they do it because it looks good or because it's going to help kick them into gear. But way before the beginning of 2011 I was thinking about a million things I would like to change. I pretty much think that all year around. So here are some of the things that I would like to make happen in my little world. So I am now one of “those” people who have New Year’s Resolutions.

My cliché-

Read my bible more! I can always find a reason not to do it. Not because I don't want to or because I don't think that God is the most important thing but because I am honestly just not good about reading. I know that for me to ever get closer to God and learn all about him I have to read his word!

I would like to be the best wife I can possibly be which means there is always work to do. My biggest issue right now is bringing up past baggage, which we have a lot of. My husband is my best friend, partner and soul mate. Seriously. I love him and I want nothing more than to be the Godly wife he deserves. I am also learning how to love him the way God does, which is quite frankly, hard.

Of course the next thing is being the best Mom I can be. This is a daily struggle of mine. I beat myself up over it. Whether or not I am doing enough, doing the right thing, giving ALL of them everything they need, ECT. My husband and I just started this class called "Grace Based Parenting" and I am super excited about it. I think it is going to help me figure out biblically how exactly to be the mother I need to be to raise children who can achieve true greatness. Also something that I feel that I don't do enough is just enjoying them. I am so afraid I am going to look back one day and say I wish I would have just played with them more or just be with them. There is always something to do when you have four kids so that is a constant battle.

Get organized. It may be simple for some people but it is not simple for me. I went from home to having a child at 18 and I never learned organization at home so I have been winging it with my own children. So not only do I want to be organized for myself but also for them.

A picture a day. It seems so simple to me but I have such a hard time with it. I just want to remember my kids the way they are right now. Sillyness and all!

There are a million other things on this list but those are some of the important ones. Now that I wrote a book, I am done. :)